just another day.....too many dayz in one!

just another day....lonely and lonesome.....yet so full of life....and full of spice...ha ha (ok i wanna sound happy)

begins with smilingly waiting for a call which u knw wud never come. morning....when u wanna keep ur dignity but u cannot bcz of ur incabilities.....n cursing urself for hours......hw ud those incabalities overcome you?? still hate myself for that. neverthless anything for the one u want to be with....though for minutes!

lazy day in office......even knowing that ud be full of work tomorow.

back to studio business. working whole night. working in the office again without having a bath!

who cares?? lol

but yeah what i care about is finding reasons for a little convo. or to see her. finding anything so that i cud see her for a while. talk to her for a bit even if its as short as a "HI" for the 10th time in the day!

those conversations (just 2!) just made me long for more!

right from killing ur dignity to be with her,,,,to asking for favours....all fabricated....with that smile......with a normal behaviour!

and what happens in between.....history trying to turn its pages backwards.....recieveing a mesage from someone u shudn have...n letting your heart out only to realise that she sent it bcz she wants to behave like a friend!!

kill it. i dun wanna thnk about it....cuz if i do......i wont be able to write more!!

lets talk about facts.

my eyes tried looking for her in office. they glimered when they did.
excuses to see her....to talk to her....to take favours.....anything for her....inspite of the fact that the favour she did was taken as a burden....neverthless she did it smilingly (without knowing it wasnt needed anymore!).

respect her a lot for what she did!

n respect "HER" for doing nuthing at all!!


all the thoughts i had in my mind a while back...just disapeared.....y?? because i thought ovr it a lot bfore writing then down :(
my incapability to access the net whenever i want is getting over me......neverthless i can.. :)


i miss her....

n even though i know that i wu dmiss her so much....im gng for it :(

u r special.....

dun just be special like others were in the past!! better still....be ordinary!!



i tried being like OTHERS today.....did help but din really!! hope i remmbr the day!!

amen!