another day in paradise

when u suffer.....but see the one who gives that comfort to u....right by ur side.......are things equalized? or r u the loser to suffer? or are u a winner??
i dunno what u think u r.
i loved the time.
i saw myself talking. those words that were drying up fast.....some for sure were compensated in th etime we were together....for the longest of times that day!

just reminded me of all teh time swe actually were!

once when i waited for her........for long.......and then when i was about to leave .......all alone....i couldnt cuz if i did ...... she wud haev felt bad :(
i cud never let her feel that way

and then....when i asked fr a favour.....was too late fr her to do it.....i had goten it done earlier......but could i tell her that?? no ways....she would have felt bad :( n i would do everthing possible in my mortality to not to let her feel that way!
as it is....i just found a reason to be with her that day.....though for seconds..neverthless....i felt like speaking to her...n seeing her and i did! :) :)


but the memorable day......yeah well.....it was down to my dignity.......n i was about to give it all up and be myself.....but tat litle voice in me asked me not to do so!
i relaxed. and got to spend so much time with her.....even when she wasnt with me......i liked OUR time TOGETHER anyhow :)

but lets face the truths, realities and facts of life.
she still doesnt respond to me, calls or messages.......so i know nothing will ever head anywhere.

dunno wether i wud still find times and reasons to just see her or hear her.....or will i just subside....sink, drown, hide, run, vanish......the worst i dun want to knw!!

time for another drink and a fag :)

but yeah......thanks....who ever u r!

u give me ignorance to some extent......neverthless i like he time.....when we talk....or are together.... (i mean when um with u....) ...

thanks....
i know it will all disapear....in minutes...hours or days.......it shows.....but i wud keep thanking u forever for the memorable times.....especially that one :P

thanks again :)