Friday, January 30, 2009

A different kinda happy ending

my 100th post :) .... the first one that i ever typed!!

n what better time for it to come.....when ur pushed right back to the exact point from where u started...years years back.

The sunlight hasn’t broken yet
The moonlight has faded away
A twinkling star can still be seen
And not even a creature that flies
One man is awake, as he always is
With a Cigarette in his hand
And with translucent eyes

With a fist full of emotions
Cuz the heart couldn’t hold more
And a head with shattered dreams
With a Heart that’s pumping feelings,
Feelings that are there to stay
the veins which are hollow, yet Full of emotions
And BLOOD? Well it’s already drained away!!

Has Wings, but doesn’t wanna fly
Wants to, but still can’t cry
Looks up, but can’t hold his head up high
Needs to, but still doesn’t try
A sight that brings tear to the eyes
How I wish, he just dies!!

Voices in his head
“the one who always smile, never gets old "
Brings a Smile to his face,
a smile that has lost all its grace.
His heart of Gold,
turned into stone;
He feels nothing,
just feels Cold.

At a distance, not so far away
Lies a memory

Known as the ever smiling guy
He made his way through everything
I was told
Then why is it that now he feels
100 years old

When he didn’t have wings,
But that doesn’t mean he couldn’t fly
Had a spirit that shouted "NEVER SAY DIE"
N even if he knew he won’t succeed,
he still tried, tried n tried.

Nothing could break him
No storm could shake him
Maybe he knew some magic
Used to do wonders
Look life is so tragic
In spite of all the good he did
He just faced Thunders

Something went wrong
dun know what
how everything changed
did anyone ever gave it a thought ?

What happened, why he changed?
It'll always remain within him
The one who had answers to everything
Now just answers everything with a grin.

N Now its Morning
the worlds about to wake
n its time for Him to sleep
Sleep while he is still awake
Knows it’s another day that he has to pretend
Pretend to sleep
Pretend to be alive
Pretend as he wants to survive

How he wishes that the world always sleeps
so that he can be up all the time

How he wishes that the world always sleeps
So that he doesn’t have to keep his eyes dry

How he wish that the world always sleeps
So that he doesn’t have to pretend that he still flies high

How he wishes that the world always sleeps
so that no one sees him waiting

Yes he is always up cuz he is waiting
He doesn’t want anybody to see
that he is waiting.

Waiting for his happy ending
The kinda ending
(That even he knows)
Will never arrive!!


Still waiting
So that he cud tell himself
At least I TRIED!!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

~ ~ $ePuLcHeR pErSoNiFiEd ~ ~

post number 99 - a dedication to the Myself :p

As if I’m alive
A thought, not simplified
A moment, passed by
A dream, not visualized
A tear that’s dried
Wings stolen, feet tied
I don’t run, I just hide
All I have, remains inside

Made to live
Live my fears
Made to breathe
Breathe my sins
Made to smile
Smile my tears
Made to feel
Feel the pain
Made to see
See some dreams (that never come to life)

My silence screams
“What have I become?”

Hell realized
A mistake, not rectified
A sinner, not purified
A feeling, crucified
Pains humanized
A sepulcher
Sepulcher Personified


Blog number 98 - a dedication to Johny Cash .... and Nine Inch Nails to altogether add another dimension to it!

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of Hype (Cash had put "thorns", Nin chipped in "Shit", but in my case its pure "Hype")
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away

I would keep myself
I would find a way

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Coming back to life


Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And headed straight..into the shining sun

4 dayz 4 highwayz

so finally the article of our trip....a short one ... needed badly though.

cant believe there are so many mistakes made, while editing it, apart from all the fun part edited :p

a trip that tuk us on 4 different national highways - NH 58, Nh 87E, Nh 87 and NH 24 in 4 dayz. a trip where our decision to venture a new highway rewarded us :)

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

The Master of Disguise

No mask He wears
No pretension He bears
No lie He speaks
No truth He tweaks

So many faces
But He bears none
The count of His expressions
Are numbered at ONE

He likes it straight
He likes it precise
Yet is
The Master of Disguise

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

The Shining Star

this piece is by someone who has stopped writing!
putting it up here cuz i love what u write.

get back to ur writing habits...wanna

up in the sky,a shining star..
seeming so distant,seeming afar..
throwing its aura down upon me..
its silhouette surrounds the sky bizarre..

its rays penetrate deep in my soul..
i'm tempted to touch and have it all..
it whispers a story unsaid to the world..
i can hear its voice,it gives me a call..

endeavoring to leap up n touch the sky..
i crave for wings for i wanna fly..
life directs me to reach out to it..
impossible it is..i fret and i cry..

i now fall flat and face the reality..
a mortal i am,no angel in disguise..
constraints and incapabilities bound me back..
disappointed,defeated..i pay the price..

sitting by the window staring into horizon..
i wonder about my shining little star..
my heart aches when it realizes the truth..
it needs me no more,we are too far..

Monday, January 12, 2009

a story.....

Flying high in the skies
Was lonely, but full of life
Was alone but still smiled

Heard a sweet voice – “can u teach me how to fly”
Looked down to see
A pretty face
So sweet
So innocent
Her voice filled with belief
Her question, full of faith.

Extended my hand
Held her
Shared my wings
N together we flew
Flew above the skies
Above all that lies

I knew she was the one
The one for me
The entire wait was worthwhile
To have her in my life

It was all a dream for her
But she made me see the reality
When I was falling to the ground
She took my wings
Wanted to fly higher

Didn’t even look back to see
What’s gonna happen to me!!

While falling down
I told myself
Never to lend a hand

I fell to the solid ground
And I fell hard
Was an unknown territory
But soon learned to walk
And started walking tall

Walked my worries,
Walked my past away
Walked the distance
To be on my own again

At times I looked up at the sky
And told myself
That soon I will fly

Walking thru my life
I heard a voice – “can I walk with u?
Her face so innocent
Her voice so sweet
Looked down to see
She didn’t have legs
Tried so hard
But still I couldn’t flee

She seemed to be haunted by self-doubt
Yet filled with self-belief
Held her hand
And together we walked
Walked the roads
Walked the mountains

She seemed so right
She seemed to be the one
And we walked our lives together
It was all a dream to her
But she made me see the reality
When off the clip, she pushed me!

She wanted to walk tall
So she took my all
I smiled at her
But she didn’t even looked back to see
What’s gonna happen to me

While falling I looked at the mountains
Looked at the sky
Told myself never to lend a hand
Cuz I knew soon ill walk
And soon ill fly
Fly high

Fell into the waters
A domain unknown
Didn’t know how to swim
My arms tried to clinch every wave
Every drop
To keep myself alive
Alive for the day when id fly high!

Soon learned how to swim
And soon I swam the rivers
Across the sea
Across the oceans

Heard a voice – “can I swim with you?”
I didn’t looked back to see
Cuz I knew whats gonna happen to me

Saw her reflection
She didn’t have arms
Was about to drown

Looked back to see
And just cudnt flee

She had a tear
But still smiled

I held her in my arms
I looked in her eyes
I knew she was the one for me

Together we swam the seas,
Crossed the oceans
She gave me her all
And took my all
Took my arms

She wanted to swim alone
Wanted to swim faster
Left me there
Left me drowning

Didn’t look back to see
That the one who was drowning
Was me!!

As I drowned
I saved every breath
And told myself
Not to lend a hand

Ohhh I realized
I dun have any!!!

I drowned
And was outta life
Started to float

Floated alone
Floated for so long

Looked at the sea
Looked at the mountains
Looked at the sky

But now I knew
I won’t ever walk,
Will never be able to fly

I closed my eyes
Rested in peace
Floated around the world

I hit a body
Floating next to me
She was so numb
She couldn’t even speak

She looked at me
But I closed my eyes
Tried so hard to push away
But the waters pushed her closer to me
What a pity
This time I wanted to
But I couldn’t even flee!!!!

I saw as I opened my eyes
She gasped for breath
I understood
All the words, those were unsaid

I looked at her
She seemed so true
She seemed so real
Out of breath
And out of life

I knew my salvation
I knew my destiny
I clinched on to her
As she kept on looking at me

I held her close
Parted her lips
Breathed into her

She came to life
And promised me a life
I life that should have been
A life that was still unseen

She gave me her all
She breathed into me
She held me tight
We shared our lives
And we shared a dream

We hit the shore
She tuk me outta the sea
Hugged me so tight
And all this while
I waited for her to leave
But she stood there
Right by my side

I gave her my all
Taught her to walk
Taught her to fly
And she promised me a life
Promised me together we will fly

Somewhere within my heart
I always knew
She was the one to take me
To my destiny!

I always knew
She was the one
To take me where I crave
I always knew
She was the one
To put me in my grave

I saw her as she hugged me
I saw her as she kissed me
I breathed into her
The last breath I saved
For the day id fly
She lifted me
Smiled at me
Dug the ground
Put me in
She kissed me softly
Caressed me gently
Turned around
And didn’t even say “goodbye”

Now it’s me
Alone I lie
I’ve reached my destiny
And don’t even look at the sky

Someone knocked the coffin
And I knew how to reply
I just smiled
And closed my eyes!!

At times my silence screams
At times, loudly I cry
It all goes unheard
Everyone just passes by

At times I wonder
Is there no one
Who could stay?

Was everyone
There to play?

Then in the midst of the night
I heard a sound
Must be a mistake
Left with nothing, I lie here alone
All is taken away.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

think about this!!

when u try to escape something, it follows u! .... and catches u (almost) everytime!

when u chase something..u keep chasing ... dun get to lay ur hands on it (mostly)


if it applies to everyone ..... then whose the one to catch hold of? and whose the one to escape???

answer this!!

what can a man give in return of his life??

Monday, January 5, 2009

facts again...

i guess these were the longest 5 dayz of my life ......longest cuz so many things hapened in such a short span of time that these 5 dayz have become an memorable moment (if put together) already!
i kept all my doubts, worries, suspicion and pessimism at bay and guess had a great time. but truth doesnt take long to slap u on the face again!
my apologies....not truth.....but Facts.....truth could be perceived outta them though.

it hits hard to know that inspite of everything u r pushed to the starting point again.

the sepulcher still smiles....with translucent eyes this time :)

Friday, January 2, 2009

that unforgettable smile....

I've missed providing immortality to a million special moments - pictures that could have won me awards if provided with a suitable caption, moments that will last a lifetime but just in my memory now, beautiful nature (being an adventurer and a traveler)and a lot more - but I've never really cared much and told myself that there'll be a next time too.

Guess it was just today that i actually missed not having a gadget to immortalize that moment, a moment that just changed me for a while, a moment that made me think,a moment that hazed reality, a moment where i could barely think about anything else, a moment that captured my thoughts, my heart and my soul. A moment that enveloped me with an aura so strong that its making me write about it!

I had to follow her car on my bike, so i was riding right behind the car and what i could see for except the car was the rear view mirror which was set perfectly for me to see that smile of hers. I've seen her smile a lotta times before but today it encapsulated me. Real or surreal.....hard to say......but for sure she didnt know that her smile is being noticed. it haz been a few hours now but the moment is replaying itself over and over again....and this time i so wish i cud witness that in real instead of watching it on the canvas over which i do not have much control.

what would i do to have that moment again? to see that smile again? or shud i say what would i not do to?

the Sepulcher smiled today!

Thursday, January 1, 2009


yup theres more, there was more!!
no further mention now....i back out again! ha ha ha

as for now....its a new wishes :))