I was born here and I'll die here against my will
I know it looks like I'm moving, but I'm standing still
Every nerve in my body is so vacant and numb
I can't even remember what it was
I came here to get away from
Don't even hear a murmur of a prayer
It's not dark yet, but it's getting there.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
life@life
my life hs alwayz been about things i never did.....things i never said......things i never showed!
about things they never saw....things they never felt.....things they never heard.
theres so much more i could have been....theres so much more i should have been!
about things they never saw....things they never felt.....things they never heard.
theres so much more i could have been....theres so much more i should have been!
Sunday, October 19, 2008
truth again
no wonder what u do for them......no matter how much love u give them.....no matter how much care u shower.......ull always get ignorance back from them.....ull alwayz be taken for granted......ull always find urself alone.....not just when u keep it all within silently......but even when when u shout out for them.
it will just be u......everyones the same....they just have different names!
u were and will always be....ur only friend!
it will just be u......everyones the same....they just have different names!
u were and will always be....ur only friend!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
walk on!
i came face to face with the real world today!
came face to face with the selfish world!
not that i havent earlier....but today was special....just like alwayz :p ... ha ha
to start with...i will recall a dialogue from hancock.....something i modified and used....but unlike movies...i got a rude reply....maybe she misunderstood....maybe i used the wrong words....maybe....she just wants to push me away.....no matter what the reason is.....i think i have been and i am being! and i will :) ... wud just play my part ...will make sure i play it well ... no matter how much i get hurt .... after all it was her smile that made me smile for quite some time .... n if i use the right words at the right time ... maybe her smile would still bring a smile to me as long as i see her smile! so wanted to speak to her.......but.....as always......
"i wonder how bad my timing is..........but everytime!" .... she could never get what i meant ... n she wont :)
and what about an unanswered call (s) .... un replied message(s) .... till the time i had to explain that it wasnt for me but for her! n not the first time that i saw it!
cant blame her. only i am to. who am i to her? practically - NOONE! or to give myself some consolation...an internet friend....a phone friend maybe.....a friend..i doubt :)
but um still a fool to just close my eyes.....let it all go......dont get hurt....only to hurt myself even more!
i can see the end.....its near.....have given up before it actually gets over!
a quitter never wins! .... i had never quit before.....but did i win? maybe i expect too much!
dun wanna win no more. dun want anything anymore!
ill close my eyes comfortably....accept my defeat....wont complain....and ill just continue.....and worse still....i wud still smile! and wud still be the same!
may my soul never rest in peace! thats what i deserve for never learning!
maybe ill be a better human if i ever get a chance to be one again!
will it rain? i dont think so!
came face to face with the selfish world!
not that i havent earlier....but today was special....just like alwayz :p ... ha ha
to start with...i will recall a dialogue from hancock.....something i modified and used....but unlike movies...i got a rude reply....maybe she misunderstood....maybe i used the wrong words....maybe....she just wants to push me away.....no matter what the reason is.....i think i have been and i am being! and i will :) ... wud just play my part ...will make sure i play it well ... no matter how much i get hurt .... after all it was her smile that made me smile for quite some time .... n if i use the right words at the right time ... maybe her smile would still bring a smile to me as long as i see her smile! so wanted to speak to her.......but.....as always......
"i wonder how bad my timing is..........but everytime!" .... she could never get what i meant ... n she wont :)
and what about an unanswered call (s) .... un replied message(s) .... till the time i had to explain that it wasnt for me but for her! n not the first time that i saw it!
cant blame her. only i am to. who am i to her? practically - NOONE! or to give myself some consolation...an internet friend....a phone friend maybe.....a friend..i doubt :)
but um still a fool to just close my eyes.....let it all go......dont get hurt....only to hurt myself even more!
i can see the end.....its near.....have given up before it actually gets over!
a quitter never wins! .... i had never quit before.....but did i win? maybe i expect too much!
dun wanna win no more. dun want anything anymore!
ill close my eyes comfortably....accept my defeat....wont complain....and ill just continue.....and worse still....i wud still smile! and wud still be the same!
may my soul never rest in peace! thats what i deserve for never learning!
maybe ill be a better human if i ever get a chance to be one again!
will it rain? i dont think so!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
learnings
not having an ego has always done me bad.
ive learnt things later than i shud have......or i guess i make myself do it to hurt my ownself...to make myself learn things that are more important than that!
ive learnt things later than i shud have......or i guess i make myself do it to hurt my ownself...to make myself learn things that are more important than that!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
...continued...
he is starting to fill his heart with hatred......hatred for mankind.....
its not the kinda hatred teh world holds for others....its a fake one...so that he keeps himself away from them....and keep them away from himself!
he wants to spend time with his ownself....more than he has been all this while.....
he wud be history soon....but he wanted to do something that goes down in history along!
may his soul succeed
its not the kinda hatred teh world holds for others....its a fake one...so that he keeps himself away from them....and keep them away from himself!
he wants to spend time with his ownself....more than he has been all this while.....
he wud be history soon....but he wanted to do something that goes down in history along!
may his soul succeed
Monday, October 6, 2008
dunno....
i really dunno what to write!
dropped in so that i cud continue the crap ive been writing till now!
but yeah....so wanted to write this afternoon....wanted to write so so so much! held myself back...had to....was in office.....n by teh time i reached home...the feeling sank!
ignorance being the key! hatred being the outcome! faking being the result! and NOTHING being the truth! i will someday....one fine day!
amen
dropped in so that i cud continue the crap ive been writing till now!
but yeah....so wanted to write this afternoon....wanted to write so so so much! held myself back...had to....was in office.....n by teh time i reached home...the feeling sank!
ignorance being the key! hatred being the outcome! faking being the result! and NOTHING being the truth! i will someday....one fine day!
amen
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