the aftermaths

its nothing that i wasnt aware of.
a broken shoulder, a tired soul, money crunch, hating the civilization......and above all hating ur ownself because u know the reasons why u went there wasnt accomplished.....be it the destination.....or be it what u wanted to run away from!

now when i sit on my bike to ride till my office.....my shoulder doesnt supports the idea......it rebels....every now and then it sends me signals ..... begs me to stop.

everytime i get high, my soul asks me to sleep before i start thinking too much again.......or end up speaking myself out.

it will end soon.......all i wanna see.....how soon!

the ride diary

what would u call a ride wherein the landscape changes every few hours.......right from the plains, to the greenry to the mountains, to the green mountains, off roda rides, valleys, changing weather, dry mountains, no roads, lakes, waterfalls to a place where the density of population is 5 per square kilometer!!
biggest reserves of snow in the himalayas, landslides, no life adds a little more!!

standing alone admist nature, a few droplets falling by with the sun shining bright.....glaciers with engraved names and faces.....a mountain view of the valleys and the vallet view of the mountains.....rivers rising along, in the opposite direction.....the sound enuf to dissolve the roaring thunder of a fistful of bullets........woahhhh!!!

the riding diary will start soon!!
way to go.... :)

one WILD RIDE

yeah......witnessinga trailer of a mini landslide this time in the land of gods was enough to make it wild!
what adds more to a ride to heaven was that we din make it to our destination, again!

welcome to a land where there is no life, no help, absolutely nothing, yet so beautiful!

a non ride-able bike, a little help, no spares or tool kits and a landslide right when ur trying to collect bits n pieces to start the trip all over again!
2 lazy fellows, a lost bag that contained a little cash but more importantly pieces of writing that could never be written in this kinda civilization!

our trip was a failure again........but what we have colecetd from it is a victory.....that lies ahead!!

SPITI - a destination seen, yet not conquered!!!!

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now


And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do

I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an You're my wonderwall

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?


Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky

Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye


Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?


'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?

the story begins!!!

He took her death seriously. Way too seriously. Beyond the bounds of his imagination.
Has he gone crazy? Or is about to?

She had the looks of an angel or maybe was one sent to this cruel earth to cure the ugliness that prevailed within manipulative bodies. She had the brains to work out things whenever they went wrong. She somehow had the answers to questions that people ask themselves but never got hers or maybe never tried finding them out.
She knew him inside out. Somehow she knew everything.
She was there whenever he needed her. Every whisper of his was answered. She exactly said what he wanted to hear, did exactly the right things to make him smile and appeared out of nowhere when he needed her and all without even staying in touch for weeks or months.
A smile of hers was enough for him to keep smiling for hours or even days put together and what more, all she tried to do was make him smile, make him happy without asking for a thing.

He now anted to cut off from rest of the world in search for serenity, was seeking for solace or maybe wanted a break, maybe needed one!

Had too much within to let out but to whom? She was always a hidden chapter and a happy one in his book called “LIFE”. Barely a few knew about her existence. Some had an interaction over the net, some she contacted on her own whenever she wanted to find out about him or hi whereabouts because he had this habit of going into isolation or his hiding every now and then. Somehow she always knew when things weren’t going right for him and magically made an appearance out of nowhere. She was omnipresent. She was the angel of mercy for him.

Inspite of all he never made an effort to get any closer to her than to just stay in touch. Only he knows the reason why. Only he knows the reasons for so many other things he did, for except her off course.


Maybe he was right in taking things a little harshly. Maybe he was wrong ……...

angels wings ...... carry me away!

You say you’re down on your luck
Hey baby It’s a long, long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears

You say you’re really down and out
And you feel like there’s no way out now
Let go now let go of your tears some more

How many times have you asked yourself?
Is this the hand of fate now that I’ve been dealt?
You’re so disillusioned this can’t be real
And you can’t stand now the way you feel

I don’t care about what they say
I won’t live or die that way
Tired of figuring out things on my own
Angel’s wings won’t you carry me home?

And when you’re down on your luck
Hey baby It’s a long, long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears
And when you’re really down and out
And you feel like there’s no way out now
Let go now, let go of your tears some more


I triumphed in the face of adversity
And I became the man I never thought I’d be
And now my biggest challenge, a thing called love
I guess I’m not as tough as I thought I was

I don’t care about what they say
I wont live or die that way
Gonna wake up, it’s a brand new day
Angel’s wings gonna carry you away
Angel’s wings gonna carry me away
Angel’s wings gonna carry us away

You may not believe it
But I don't believe in miracles anymore
And when I think about it
I don't believe I ever did for sure

All the things I’ve said in songs
All the purple prose you bought from me
Reality's just black and white
The sentimental things I’d write
Never meant that much to me.

You don't need to hear it
But I’m dried up and sick to death of love
If you need to know it
I never really understood that stuff

All the stars and bleeding hearts
All the tears that welled up in my eyes
Never meant a thing to me
Read them as they say and weep
I've never felt enough to cry


When I said that I don't care
It really means my engine's breaking down
The chisel chips my heart again
The granite cracks beneath my skin
I crumble into pieces on the ground


Picking up my pain
From door to door,
Shedding those tears
In the farthest shore,
Living the storyline
Burning overtime
Won't look into anyone's eyes anymore!!

IN LOVING MEMORY :)

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone

You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true

Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting

But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me


I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me