just another time

dont fight a battle if theres nothing to win!

how i respect those words......so y is it that i cannot follow them?
or is it that i just fight to lose? y?

aint we all fighting our ownselves over something or the other?
but y do we fight? bcz we hope that in the end we get what we are battling for!
then y cant i do it? y is it so hard?
if i dont battle it out....i lose.......
if i do....i dun wanna win!

the chapters of sanity are long over........victories dont fascinate me anymore!
um a mere mortal......just a lil child.......crying out for attention.....yet alwayz trying to hide.
always trying to get those eyes on me......and when they do.....i look for places to hide.......and the hide outs are as visible as the person i am!

IF YOU LIVE ON YOUR OWN TERMS....THERE IS A PRICE YOU HAFTA PAY!
and only those who can.......can live on their own terms!
but whats the price one needs to pay for that?
sanity?
respect?
ego?
or even dignity?

what if u paid it all....n still cant live on ur terms? or is it that you dont want to? or is it that THEY dont let u?

what is it that keeps holding you back?
loved ones?
friends?
or the ones u want to be with.....even when u know u wont be able to!


the sooner u realize that u dun have the answers to certain questions.......
the sooner u realize that u cannot change certain things....
the sooner u can live in peace!

amen!