its a hard time figuring out wether the character of ur novel is turning out to be u?

or u r changing into th echaracter u reallly wanna write about!

facts supposrt both the sides of the coin.

an incident today reminded me of the past again.......or was it past living once again!

5 dayz - and u coming face to face with 4 incidents that occured in the past......4 major ones.....!!

at this pace it will overpower me for sure!!

undefined.....

he loved her blindfoldedly and it showed!!
he wasnt the one to make big promises....or to get the stars or teh sun or the moon from the skies for her........he was practical.
neither did he promised big things.......he believed in doing rather than talking about it.
what a pity......he knew that it will all end up with him walkig in the rains........but he never cared.
what made his love special was.......that it was selfless.
if there was anything he ever asked for was her smile......for some precious moments (for him) to be spent together....for her hapiness.....
he was willing to walk the rest of his life in the rain for that.......
and that too hapily!!

Tears don’t fall
Neither do they subside
It hurts to death
Keeping it all inside
No matter where you run
You will never be able to hide
One day you’ll lose it all
Love, hate, respect and pride!
When you’ll look around
With eyes that have dried
Even your shadow will tremble
To be by your side
The greatest of love has never lived
It has always died!!

Expect the worst and be prepared for the best!

Expect the worst and be prepared for the best!

No wonder people call me a pessimist and an introvert too. Maybe I’m right in saying that the prison that captivates me is that of my own. I do not contradict any statement made about me. Its just a matter of perception.

Expecting the worst doesn’t make me a different person, at least not for my ownself, maybe cuz that’s what I have been getting mostly. After all expectations should be a function of practicality to some extent!
But there’s a ray of silver lining in my dark world too.

Be prepared for the best!
Yeah. Sometimes it’s not so easy to digest the best things in life. In my case, HAPINESS!
When I have received a bit of it, I blew it over proportions, magnified it to the max, maybe pixilated it enough for it to blur and vanish eventually!

Yeah I was at fault. I should have prepared myself for the unexpected happiness to come my way. Maybe I’ll learn, soon enough.

ashez of a memory

21/11/2001 - “Saurabh, I need a guy who loves me and love is quite far away from u!”

how these words kept echoing in my head all thru the night!!

22/11/2001 – “love isn’t far away from me, im away from love!”

and um sure these words echoed in hers as well!!

And I was a different man from that day.
Maybe I found someone who loved me, maybe I found someone to love, maybe I was wrong!

3rd of june 2003 – the end of the beginning….or the beginning of an end! Those words started losing their meaning and so did everything.

I guess I was wrong….something that had never happened to me before…..my image of being purfct just shattered in front of my ownself!

She was right. Love went away from me. And has been ever since then!

dream...s

whatta dream i had.....
met total strangers........and um still wondering where have i met them!
i saw tears, felt kisses, hugs.......hands in hands.......and well........i was in between reality.

i dreamt in my dreams......all a reality.......but all just for a while!

woke up and slept again for the dream to continue....and it did!!

woke up again.....and slept for it to continue.....but it din.......but another one.....was no diiferent!

how strangers in ur dreams come n change a day for u......

they din end at a high note for me.......i saw someone cry.......and someone just leaving even when she din want to........but those dreams surely brought a cheer to me.

now only dreams bring that smile.......

thanks to my dreams.....am a happy person today :)

dream...s

whatta dream i had.....
met total strangers........and um still wondering where have i met them!
i saw tears, felt kisses, hugs.......hands in hands.......and well........i was in between reality.

i dreamt in my dreams......all a reality.......but all just for a while!

woke up and slept again for the dream to continue....and it did!!

woke up again.....and slept for it to continue.....but it din.......but another one.....was no diiferent!

how strangers in ur dreams come n change a day for u......

they din end at a high note for me.......i saw someone cry.......and someone just leaving even when she din want to........but those dreams surely brought a cheer to me.

now only dreams bring that smile.......

thanks to my dreams.....am a happy person today :)