the story begins!!!

He took her death seriously. Way too seriously. Beyond the bounds of his imagination.
Has he gone crazy? Or is about to?

She had the looks of an angel or maybe was one sent to this cruel earth to cure the ugliness that prevailed within manipulative bodies. She had the brains to work out things whenever they went wrong. She somehow had the answers to questions that people ask themselves but never got hers or maybe never tried finding them out.
She knew him inside out. Somehow she knew everything.
She was there whenever he needed her. Every whisper of his was answered. She exactly said what he wanted to hear, did exactly the right things to make him smile and appeared out of nowhere when he needed her and all without even staying in touch for weeks or months.
A smile of hers was enough for him to keep smiling for hours or even days put together and what more, all she tried to do was make him smile, make him happy without asking for a thing.

He now anted to cut off from rest of the world in search for serenity, was seeking for solace or maybe wanted a break, maybe needed one!

Had too much within to let out but to whom? She was always a hidden chapter and a happy one in his book called “LIFE”. Barely a few knew about her existence. Some had an interaction over the net, some she contacted on her own whenever she wanted to find out about him or hi whereabouts because he had this habit of going into isolation or his hiding every now and then. Somehow she always knew when things weren’t going right for him and magically made an appearance out of nowhere. She was omnipresent. She was the angel of mercy for him.

Inspite of all he never made an effort to get any closer to her than to just stay in touch. Only he knows the reason why. Only he knows the reasons for so many other things he did, for except her off course.


Maybe he was right in taking things a little harshly. Maybe he was wrong ……...

angels wings ...... carry me away!

You say you’re down on your luck
Hey baby It’s a long, long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears

You say you’re really down and out
And you feel like there’s no way out now
Let go now let go of your tears some more

How many times have you asked yourself?
Is this the hand of fate now that I’ve been dealt?
You’re so disillusioned this can’t be real
And you can’t stand now the way you feel

I don’t care about what they say
I won’t live or die that way
Tired of figuring out things on my own
Angel’s wings won’t you carry me home?

And when you’re down on your luck
Hey baby It’s a long, long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears
And when you’re really down and out
And you feel like there’s no way out now
Let go now, let go of your tears some more


I triumphed in the face of adversity
And I became the man I never thought I’d be
And now my biggest challenge, a thing called love
I guess I’m not as tough as I thought I was

I don’t care about what they say
I wont live or die that way
Gonna wake up, it’s a brand new day
Angel’s wings gonna carry you away
Angel’s wings gonna carry me away
Angel’s wings gonna carry us away

You may not believe it
But I don't believe in miracles anymore
And when I think about it
I don't believe I ever did for sure

All the things I’ve said in songs
All the purple prose you bought from me
Reality's just black and white
The sentimental things I’d write
Never meant that much to me.

You don't need to hear it
But I’m dried up and sick to death of love
If you need to know it
I never really understood that stuff

All the stars and bleeding hearts
All the tears that welled up in my eyes
Never meant a thing to me
Read them as they say and weep
I've never felt enough to cry


When I said that I don't care
It really means my engine's breaking down
The chisel chips my heart again
The granite cracks beneath my skin
I crumble into pieces on the ground


Picking up my pain
From door to door,
Shedding those tears
In the farthest shore,
Living the storyline
Burning overtime
Won't look into anyone's eyes anymore!!

IN LOVING MEMORY :)

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone

You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true

Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting

But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me


I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

just another time

dont fight a battle if theres nothing to win!

how i respect those words......so y is it that i cannot follow them?
or is it that i just fight to lose? y?

aint we all fighting our ownselves over something or the other?
but y do we fight? bcz we hope that in the end we get what we are battling for!
then y cant i do it? y is it so hard?
if i dont battle it out....i lose.......
if i do....i dun wanna win!

the chapters of sanity are long over........victories dont fascinate me anymore!
um a mere mortal......just a lil child.......crying out for attention.....yet alwayz trying to hide.
always trying to get those eyes on me......and when they do.....i look for places to hide.......and the hide outs are as visible as the person i am!

IF YOU LIVE ON YOUR OWN TERMS....THERE IS A PRICE YOU HAFTA PAY!
and only those who can.......can live on their own terms!
but whats the price one needs to pay for that?
sanity?
respect?
ego?
or even dignity?

what if u paid it all....n still cant live on ur terms? or is it that you dont want to? or is it that THEY dont let u?

what is it that keeps holding you back?
loved ones?
friends?
or the ones u want to be with.....even when u know u wont be able to!


the sooner u realize that u dun have the answers to certain questions.......
the sooner u realize that u cannot change certain things....
the sooner u can live in peace!

amen!

It was all a dream
A nightmare indeed
I knew it’ll soon be over
Ill soon be free
From he clutches that were
Holding me so tight
The clutches
I cudnt give a fight

But suddenly I knew
I wasn’t sleeping
I wasn’t dreaming
And realized
I wasn’t even breathing!!

I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride and I know how to hide
All my sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain

If I wait for stormy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you so
Though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain


Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
But since we're not together
I'll "pray" for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you'll never see

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool
But till then, darling,
you'll never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain

Since we're not together
I'll pray for stormy weather
to hide these tears
I hope you'll never see

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool
But till then, darling,
you'll never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain